lost in LOST

It's been a very long time since my last post. So many things have happened since. The reason for which I has started this blog has been defeated. Well that does not mean I am going to discontinue blogging, actually I am more interested than ever to write blogs(I will reveal the reason at the end).

Well CAT was the reason I took to blogging. After the exam I wanted some vent for my frustration to flow out, but Jan 8th turned out to be a very different day for me.
There wasn't any hope but even then I was checking the website every minute to find the flashing sign "Can't u wait until 12", my heart was racing and clocked beats faster and faster with every passing minute. There were lot of rumors and speculation in the air. Then came the news that we can receive the scores via sms, sent my test registration number and date of birth to the specified number.

Then came the message, my entire body had gone chill, I could feel goose flesh rising upon my body. I opened the message "Please type the DOB in this format dd/mm/yyyy and send it over to the number 00000" wtf &%*&#$&#&* (censored;) ) I wish I could have seen the reaction in my face. All this excitement to read one stupid message??

Then sent the message again, then came the message. It read percentiles of VA: 95.91, DI - 98.53 QA - 89.95 OA - 98.57. To be frank this is a big percentile for me, even a dream of getting such high percentile would have made me so happy, but despite seeing this score, I was not happy, but I felt very sad. I was disappointed that Quant had let me down(still complaining something else for my stupidity).

Till Jan 7th, I would have settled for any score, but after seeing the score, I was really down because this is as much close as it can get for not getting a call. Bless my fate, the sms does not give the details of the calls that I have got from the IIM's. So had to sit back and refresh the web-page again and again hoping the server honours my request.

At some point of time, I started counting the number of refreshes and then lost count in the middle, the last number that I rememeber was 202.(This lost is not what the blog heading refers to :D ). All this happened on a working day, I had a small guilt of using my office resource for this purpose, (comeone I was just joking the previous sentence, felt the blog was getting very serious :) ) finally instead of the usual 404 message, I got to see the score sheet. Then below the score sheet was these lines,
You have been shortlisted for the following IIM's

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Yeah it was just a dash, "wait a second" there was a scroll bar. Have I got a big list??(lol) no chance, but then it's worth a scroll after so many relentless clicks..
Then I could see it,

-IIM Lucknow.

I wasn't sure whether I was happy for having got the first call of my life or sad for having missed few other calls just by one quant question or was the shock of getting a call so much that my brain hanged? :D because my responses were limited a lot and there were so many mixtures of emotions that were flowing within me. Pride for having conquered CAT(really??? whatever), disappointment for my quant and for my friends who weren't as lucky as I was in CAT, a sense of achievement, fear of a single call, hope of an IIM tag, thought abt the boring Sunday classes at T.I.M.E again :( and so many other things.

Well each day is a learning lesson in life and this was yet another important lesson. I have preached to many of my friends about taking loss and victory as same, but here I am disappointed about what I could not get, instead of thinking about what to do next to grab the golden oppurtunity. Though I had the initial sadness, luckily there were a lot of friends who pumped up my spirit making me realise that my CAT'07 attempt was not a failure like what I had posted.
After all after 2 years it's my "Luck""Now"

I am sure many will be surprised to read this post, since no one will be sad having got a IIM call, and I tried my best not to show disappointment in my face on that day. Now having completed the interview, I am very happy to have received the call and am grateful to everyone who played their part in helping me achieve this. Though I was the one who took the exam, there were so many other invisible forces that helped me achieve this.

Well regarding the topic, i wanted to write a blog like most tamil movies, where there is no relationship between the topic/title and the actual movie. But then in the movie they actually say the title name at the end(ppl who have'nt seen any tamil movies, i really pity you for having missed some real treats). So in keeping up with the tradition,
I am watching the LOST series and I am really lost in that. :P THE END

Coming Soon: TIME1:Esh, is this how you have prepared for your interview? pathetic
Esh: (thank u f**k face) (vacant expression) I will prepare better...
TIME2: u have a good voice, nice body language, but lack content to speak..
Esh : :O :O :O wtf?? (what will i talk about some stupid topic)
Panel: U are too boring
Esh: do u want a strip show now?? :P

and more experience. Keep watching this space for more... :D

I really appreciate people who take pains to read until this sentence. I am really honoured to get your comments. I have added some ads in my blog, if you are interested in any of these ads Pl explore the options.. ;)

Deja Vu.....

Time Travel, yet another fascinating topic that I am totally ignorant about. In this Blog, I am not going to talk about the boring theories that explain the feasibility of the most alluring fiction of all time(author's judgement ;) ) as you can find so much material in wikipedia, instead let me jump into some interesting scenarios(atleast interesting for me )

Before reading any further, I want you to assume that I got hold of a time machine, which is capable of taking one person(yeah! I don't want an accomplice in this mission) to anywhere in the calendar(past, future and present) and also capable of teleporting me to anywhere in the Globe in an instant.

Now let the time be 10.00 am(IST), i(esh1) head 5 mts into the future so it is 10.05 am(IST). Again I return back to 9:59 am(IST). Yeah I will be seeing myself(esh2) with a another set of time machine. Now what happens to esh1 if esh2 does not go to 10.05 and return to 9:59? Well that I am least bothered as I can always get to any point of time. What I really wanted to convey is, I am in a position in which, I don't have any shortage of Human Resource and TIME. I have so many esh's working for eshwar's goal. I don't want an army so, I will stick to a number 4 which others will agree since they will be thinking as I am..If you had thought one eshwar was too much, then get used to live with 4 of em...I will tell the reason why I chose the number 4 at the end of this post.. I don't want to confuse more, let me brief about my mission ;)....


I have some personal scores to settle and I may also end up doing some good in that process.
Something that I hated a lot in my school was HISTORY, especially the World War -2 essays. I had a terrible time mugging up those things. That is not all, as a result of World War-2 UN was formed and I also had to study a lot about UN, Security Council and all shits. So what is the cause of this?? I don't remember the 10 points that I mugged for the essay, but then one major factor was due to an eccentric who shares the birthday with me, Hitler. First trip to 1889, April 13. Abduct the newborn Hitler and send him to the future. wow!! I have prevented the World War-2. But there is every possibilty that someone else starts the war, so this is a pretty tough mission and I won't rest until the pages of history are erased of the WW-2.. ;)

There are so many times when we had thought, fcuk!!! hope I can change the past. I have had lots of such incidence and for the past few days, I have been having more than normal occurance of such thoughts. So thought about penning some crazy things that I will do when I get hold of one time machine.

There are lot of things to patch up in the past, but then there are some things that needed to be done in the future too. I am wasting a lot of time(not anymore with the time m/c around ;) ) following F1, EPL, cricket. Well esh2 has a very simple work to collect the results of all the news for another 100 years. But there is one thing that I don't need a time machine to say,
Kimi Raikkonen will be F1 champ as long as he is Ferrari and Manchester United will win epl this year. :D
May be I can get an info as to when Lewis Hamilton will be moving to Ferrari and when Sourav Ganguly, Sachin will retire from Indian cricket(if at all they retire). Don't be shocked if the headlines read "Sourav dies on the pitch trying to beat Sachin's record for the oldest century scorer at 100" in 2071...

But then there is esh4, the greedy dark side. I am sure where he is going to go when he gets hold of the time machine. It is right into the future with a view to control the stock markets and next step will be politics. Never know he may even succeeding in luring the other esh's to his cause. Then there will be a very grave scenario of the World under the hands of another dictatorship. Though I don't share nothing more than a birth date with Hitler, u never know.

I am sure about one thing though. TIME machine has never been invented and it will never be invented. The reason is simple, there is no history of dictatorship through the ages. Because one who gets the TIME machine will not be just content with autocracy over his/her time. It is good for Earth that it is not and will never be invented. :D... Also what is the fun if we knew what is going to happen in the next minute? If you get to know what is going to happen in the future, most probably that event is not going to occur, because you have already seen it.

The movies Next, Paycheck and many Super-Hero animations(X-men evolution, JLA, batman beyond, Superman) were influential in bringing this blog out of me.

Thanks for your patience, I don't want to test more of yours. The reason why I had chosen 4 is, "Naalu perukku nallathu nadakanumna ethuvumey thappu illa". :D

Rebirth - A Myth or Mystery or Reality

Few things have puzzled me as much as "Death" and "Re-Birth". Even my Blog's title(the inevitable) was influenced by this phenomenon. I have always wondered what happens after Death. But I am not very eager to know that now :D. Before we proceed further, I would like to quote some well established laws that I will be using in this blog,

Newton's third Law: For every action, there is an equivalent and opposite reaction. Will be denoted as N3 from hereon.
Law of Conservation of Energy(COE): Matter/Energy can neither be created not destroyed, it can however be converted from one form to another form. In other words, the total amount of energy in a system is always constant.

To do all our activities we derive energy out of what we eat. But there must be another form of energy which is responsible for life, else we can live perpetually just by consuming food. So death can be attributed to the death of this energy(No energy can die, so movement of this energy out of the body), which we call the life energy(LE), often referred to as the soul.

Now comes the catch, according to COE, nothing can be destroyed, so what really happens to this Life energy? We can draw few possible conclusions from this question,

• Life Energy goes to the God. Attaining salvation.
• Life Energy is again manifested in some other form --- Re-Birth.
  

Re-birth seems to be a more convincing argument, since it adheres to COE and also to N3, if we consider death as an action, then the opposite reaction to death may be Birth(not accurately, but can be assumed), also the life energy gets manifested somewhere into the system thus obeying COE.

How does this Life energy looks like?
Is it a one size fit all, i.e. it can fit into any organism? because human population has been increasing constantly, so the extra Life energies must have come from other organisms(a very crude assumption).
So I am forced to assume that some life energy "X", is residing in me and is waiting to flee someday.
At this point I have few more questions arising in my mind,

• What was the first source for the life energy?
  
• Doesnt Life energy lose some of it's energy when it is moving from one organism to another(There must be something to impede the movement. courtesy: Inertia, friction)
  
• When the time comes for the life energy to flee, where does it go? another human? or non-human?
  
• Is my life energy's movement governed by my deeds?
  
• Does the life energy inside me have any moral impact in me?
  
• Does it impact the decision that I take? Was it responsible for writing this long blog?
  
• Does the Life energy ever face an end(i.e.Death)?
  
• Can Life energy facing it's end be compared to the soul reaching the God?
  Violates COE, energy flows from Higher potential to lower potential, Definitely God cannot be at Lower potential, so it has to higher potential, No human can become better than God(again a crude assumption). Worst case a human can become as good as God, then LE is of same potential, even then no energy flows. So either he becomes "He", else life energy traces the usual cycle.
  
• Is it true that everything that is happening around us is planned by Him?
  

So are we really living in a matrix? Some mirage that is so true that we have accepted it to be real?
What we have accepted as Fate, is it some sequence of steps executed by the God aka Architect?
I may sound very stupid and crazy, but I was in my perfect senses when I wrote this Blog, I would be really happy if these questions ignite some spark in you. I hope I am not the only one having these questions in my mind. Importantly I don't expect any answers for my questions. I just wanted to share my ignorance.

I never had given any thought about this until last Sunday and this blog was also not influenced by the movie OSO :D. I was talking with a couple of my friends when one of my friend said that someone in a TV program told that she/he was really lucky to be born in a particular sect. wtf!! I can't control my laughter. That is seriously one deranged Life Energy. Thanks to that deranged Life energy for inspiring my crazy LE to write this blog. It is not my intention to hurt any sentiments. If this blog had hurt any feeling, pls don't blame me, my LE is responsible for that. :)


P.S. People reading this Blog, All the above sentences except those 2 laws are my judgments(which are opinions that imply approval or disapproval of persons, objects, situations and occurances in the past, the present or the future), and some inferences(which are conclusions drawn about the unknown on the basis of the known). CAT hangover, It has become something like an addiction, a crush, whatever. But the sad part is that I get to date with CAT only once in 365 days. :D

Why Am I Blogging???

There's no escaping reason, no denying purpose - because as we all know, without purpose, this blog would not exist. It is purpose that created it, Purpose that guides it, That drives it, It is purpose that defines it, Purpose that binds it.

I had long desired to write a verbose blog, just like those CAT-06/07 RC's (Some how all my examples invariably allude to CAT, pls excuse... still suffering from hangover :D), but then I decided not to write one like that because,

• I know how it feels to read those passages.. Feels like kambikumbam(shld have watched a tamil movie Anniyan to appreciate this).. LOL
• More importantly I don't know how to write such Blogs.. :D

So i had to resort to Copy Paste to get those first few lines for this Blog. For those still wondering what it is, it is a dialogue taken from the film Matrix(modified a bit).

Ok what is that purpose that defines, binds, drives, guides and created this Blog
Is it my intent to share my knowledge?
Is it my desire to enforce my opinion on the readers?
Is it something to put in my hobbies during Personal Interviews?
The answer shall be Nooooooooooooo to all the above questions, then why the f**k am I writing this?

Through a blog I felt I could express my real self, no inhibitions that I face in the real life. Spit out whatever I feel from my heart, no need for the brain to edit and selectively permeate words. I can freely use the "f" word, nowhere do I have this freedom :D. Doesn't mean I have a compulsive desire to use "f" word as a verb in every sentence. But then even that is possible. This feels like a Matrix and me none other than "NEO".

Now comes the serious purpose for my blog, Once sufficient traffic builds up, I am planning to set up Google Adsense and then rake some revenue out of that. I can see a grin, I may be little ambitious but then I am serious. I still have more plans, but I will reveal them in future blogs.

One another serious intent. I feel like NEO, so hoping to find Trinity soon.. Actually the trinity finds Neo in Matrix, whatever don't want to act egoistic and lose any oppurtunity.. :D

I guess by this time, you must have really understood what the author wanted to convey through the above array of words, ok I will make this easy the CAT way(again hangover)
(a) Share his knowledge.
(b) Use the "f" Word in all his official emails.
(c) Go past Mukesh Ambani with the revenue from this Blog.
(d) Find Trinity
(e) None of the Above.
Anyone predicting the correct option gets a free pass into the IIM of their choice next year(ROFL) and also gets to share 20% of the Ad-revenue that I hope to generate through Blogs(I guess that should be enough to fund your IIM fee).

P.S. Thank you for all the comments and feedbacks for my first blog. Hope to bring out some more in the future.

My Cat had three lives

I have been thinking about composing a blog for a very long time, but then never had the motivation to do it. But then somehow I wanted to scribble something after Nov-18th debacle(CAT Day), So my blog journey starts with describing a failure.

Just like 2.3lac ppl on Earth, even I had a big dream(I still have it) of making it into the IIM's. I don't want to dwell too much on my preparation and my test, in short I screwed up CAT-07 big time :D

I guess the day after CAT is the most irritating day for most of the students who end up like me(screwed by CAT).. I had to answer so many phone calls from friends and relatives. I wished I erased the fact that i took CAT from their memory.

Their intentions are very good, no doubt but then by consoling they only rub salt in the wound. I felt really relieved after CAT-07 even though I screwed it up, since there shall be no more long nights, no more mocks in the weekends and really cherished the thought of a normal life. Then suddenly a friend turns up in IM and says "U will make it next time", How may next times am i going to have? " u have a good chance" Buddy u need to be in IIM admission office to say that. "failure is the f**king stone of success" Oh My God! What next???

The fact is I am really happy that this exam is over, though I may have been beaten this time, i am not at all worried, bcos I put up a brave fight before going down. I have no intentions to hurt anyone through this post. If anyone felt hurt, then it is purely coincidental.. :D